That’s it. I finally got it!
While talking to a friend of mine through Yahoo! Messenger (well, she got pissed alright), I learned something about myself. So that is why I have been acting really weird this past couple of months. Its because I cannot accept the facts that happened to me. I have been wearing so many masks whenever I am not alone – pretending to be happy and strong but the truth is, I’m actually rotting inside. I never intended to hide myself from others but the real intention is, I do not want to look at myself in the mirror of life looking like a rotten tomato and that’s why I wear colorful masks – to hide from myself, not from others.
That’s right. I lost my confidence, my self – esteem and I totally lost myself. Its about time that I look at myself in a deeper way. I’m not ugly. All I have to do is accept the fact that I am just not too good for her.
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